I Won't Be Your Star Forever

'07 Baby!!!

2007-01-02T07:58:16Z

Well it is officially the new year...can you believe it? We actually made it through '06! And '06 was an...wow...it was just monumental I guess. A lot of changes, good and bad. Senior year, Panther Prowl, Grad Bash, Graduation, leaving and not leaving for college, tattoos!, new friends, losing friends, STATE CHAMPS BABY!, Robert Marve makes my life!, football games, cheering, new adventures, losing the old ones...it was a monumental year and sadly it, like everything else, has come to an end. So here is to a new year with more fun and less pain! It's time to rock out the new year my friends and say a sad goodbye to '06!

Oh...and Robert Marve still rox my sox! XD

FHSAA State Finals...Fuck yeah...I am so in love with Robert Marve!!!

2006-12-10T05:07:11Z

OMFG...okay...I have soooo much to put here. You don't even have to read it. This is for me mostly, Gracie will get it and probably appreciate it as well. For all others, you've been warned of the massive amounts of joy and drool. So onward! I went to the FHSAA State Finals today all the way over in Miami at Dolphin Stadium! My ass is so numb lol but it was so worth it! It was the most AMAZING game I have ever seen. Those boys are better than any college players, any pro ball players, they are just totally and completely amazing! And Marve, A.K.A The Lion! Omg...I so want to marry that boy and have his gorgeous children! XD He was unbelievable. As usual. The entire game was! And he was so cute when he got upset and would sit off by himself and he was yelling and freaking out. He really wanted to win this game obviously. Finally this coach went over after the next turn over and was like petting him on the head and talking him down, it was cute. But I think one of the cutest things was later during a turnover, with defense on the field he was sitting there, alone again, praying! Did that whole hail mary lookin thing, cross over the chest and all that. Then was pointing up at the sky and yelling. That to me was just hot and I can't explain it. Gracie got me on that one tho. So anyway, back to the game...gah. I can't even begin to type up all the amazing parts of it because well it was a four hour game, I've had only four hours sleep and I don't think my heart can take anymore honestly. It was just beyond all words. I held back a little because I was with my dad and Justin and Ariel were just sitting there all boring while Gracie and I did all the cheering, but I still managed to freaking bruise my right hand and my left finger. lol. That's how hard I was clapping. It actually turned purple and bruised down to the bone. My throat is swollen and by the end my head was pounding and I thought I would pass out. It was just unbelievably amazing! "WHO YOU WITH? PLANT HIGH!" lol that was one of my fav cheers we did. Along with Let's Go Marve, or just the intense chanting of ROBERT towards the end when you just KNEW he needed that pick me up. Gah...so...I'll go over some of my fav parts as best I can. My brain is all rattled and whatnot. But #3 leapt into the air, just before the boundary line and intercepted the ball freaking ONE HANDED for the turnover we needed in the game towards the end. Then Marve saved us, of course! XD In the last minute and a half, that boy ran the ball, threw like hell and got us that touchdown with about thirty seconds to go. Then we scored a few more points in the next few seconds so we're down to 17 seconds and its 25-21. Nease gets the ball and gives us a serious run for our money making it over halfway to where they need to be before our boys took his ass down. 3 seconds left to go and they STILL gave us a run for our money and were tackled just in time. And that was the end of the game. We dominated in the first half, they came back towards the third, overtook us in the fourth and we won out against them and all their dirty tricks, all the god damn flags!!! Everything. It was intense and vicious, tho nothing like the Semi-Finals with Booker T. Tho we did catch them doing shit like one player started kicking the shit out of our player who was down on the ground, but the stupid ref missed it. Stuff like that. Later tho we did hit one person so bad we weren't sure he was getting up. :) If it wasn't for Marve's amazing talent, or Winters, Jackson, Gallion, and #1, 3, and 8...Just wow. So they dominated. With amazing skill and grace. Oh shit...Marve is graceful and resillient as all hell! No matter how many times he got knocked down he got right the freak back up! Did an amazing spin, dance thing so worthy of pro ball to avoid being taken down and score us a few more yards. Unbelievable. I will so be watching his career and I hope that he continues on in College Ball next year with the full athletic scholarship he MUST be recieving. Even pro if that's how he goes, and I HATE pro ball because there's just not the same passion or intensity. But something tells me with a player like Marve that will always be there. As well as with some of our other boys! I have to freaking record the game when it comes on t.v. or if they sell it, which would be too sweet. Then after the game Marve tackled Gallion (sp?) and they were practically humping right there on the field in their excitement and yelling at each other,rolling around on the ground,jumping up and pointing, freaking out...lol it was so hot!!!! 6+9 right Gracie-Lou? Later when everyone was going around hugging each other over the win he hugged one of his teammates and he locked his arms around him and pulled him close, then moved his mouth like he was pressing it into his neck...which was...*drools* lol I mean, it wasn't meant to be gay I'm sure but still man...it was so sexxi. There was so much cheering and screaming it was just....GAH! Players ran around slapping hands and I barely brushed Marve's fingers but hot damn! Grace got it full on and was freakin so Ariel goes "yea? Well I was in his house in sixth grade, so boo-yah!" lol My stupid little sister, of all her little friends not to spend every waking moment with it had to be his little sister? SHEESH! lol. It was an all around drool fest. An all around heart attack waiting to happen. I seriously thought I would die there. lol. But it would have been worth it completely. I can't even organize my thoughts I'm so hyped! There's a surprise party at the school at 12:30 for the football players, which is when they're due to arrive. But ppl have been there from like 10:30 or something. The players stopped off in Seminole for a party, lol which of course they deserve. I'm so upset I can't go tho! Gracie went home to sleep right away, I took Justin home b4 I knew about the party and don't want to go with just him. Steph hates football and well...everyone else is away at college! -sobs- But oh well...I saw the game and that's all I need I guess! oooooh Justin's gonna have em autograph my shirt tho! -drools and dies- Geez I'm so hyped. Freaking Semi-Finals were intense too...shoot I'll write about that next time. I gotta go now before I die. lol plus I have a paper due tomorrow I haven't even started. -smacks forehead-

I AM SOOOOOO IN LOVE WITH MARVE!!! -DIES-

Wow...

2006-10-11T18:03:49Z

Hey all! Wow, I haven't posted here in a long time. I guess I got caught up in my myspace and what not. But I miss my LJ. So here I am. Things have been off and on with everything, lol. Life is life, right? But this weekend things should be looking up. My girls are coming down to visit. So partying is on the agenda for the weekend. I plan on getting ZERO sleep. :) Which is the best part. Aside from that I've been writing nonstop, every day. And just now starting up with New Moon again. Greatest freakin series ever!!! *dies* I love Edward and Jacob, they're just awesome. *dances* Umm...not much else, been writing, listening to my music of course to keep my from stressin non stop. Missing Anita, because it has been several months since I last talked to her and things felt kind of weird between us. *shrugs* I've tried e-mailing her, but no response. And I no longer have her cell number any more which really sux. But I don't know what else to do. I guess I've got to wait until some time frees up for her or something. Either way I love her and miss her. And that's pretty much it, oh except Meli and I are going back to get our third tattoo this Christmas together. Since that's our thing! :) We've been there with each other for each tat, and plan on keeping the tradition alive. I think we're both only planning on getting maybe one or two more. She's getting a turtle this time and I'm going for a kanji symbol. Excited to see her again and Magz because I haven't seen them I think since like the fourth of july...or maybe sooner with Meli but not Magz. Dying to see them. Ooooh and I did get the pictures from Magz going away party developed...lmao..they were terrible. But awesome. Some of them looked more like porn shots, but that's what happens when you get us girls together. ^-^ Next batch of pictures should be interesting. *dances excitedly* Well, I'm back to work and musicness. Then off to drool over Edward and to pick up the grls. That's my routine! Up early, take girls to school, write, and then pick em up. Then its home to clean, cook or whatever errands need to be run. So I better get back to work and get some writing done. I've gotten like seven pages in this one story done today which is awesome! :) Super excited that I've been flowing creatively again. I've got three novels going at once, well more than that but only three that I'm really focusing on. Going real well. Grace edits for me and we're both sending out letters to the publishing companies soon, so *crosses fingers* wish me luck! Much love to Anita and of course the rest of our extended family. Magz and I love and miss you guys!!! *hugs n kisses*

cries Anita!

2006-03-03T00:44:54Z

Not much of an update really...just realized I hadn't posted in a long time...so here it is..well that and last night I was checking my reviews and I glanced away for a second, not realizing that i wasn't scrolling to the end still for the new ones and when I turned back I saw a review from Anita and I swear my heart stopped. I thought I would die. I haven't heard from her in so long, we have no idea where she is and Eric is...trying to persuade me into forgetting her. But I just can't do that. Not to Anita. She's meant more to me in a year than most people I've known my entire life. She's the only one who really understands me, or even knows me. I'm sorry Eric, but I just can't give her up so easily. She's my friend, my mommy! ^_^ But back to the review...needless to say it was an old one but...it still gave me hope. It kind of reminded me of all the good times we had, all the late night talks and...I'm even more sure than before that I can wait until she decides shes ready to come back. i know she didn't do this to hurt us. She has a reason, and I have faith in that, and more importantly in her. Anyways...in case she reads this any time soon, or ever really...I miss you mommy!!!! *hugs n kisses* <3 Babydoll!

"Looking back now, well it makes me laugh
We were growin our hair, we were cuttin' class
Knew it all already, there was nothing to learn
We were strikin' matches just to watch 'em burn

Listen to our music just a little too loud
We were hangin' in there with the outcast crowd
Headin' to the rapids with some discount beer
It was a long train tussle but we had no fear.

Man I don't know, where the time goes
But It sure goes fast, just like that
We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue
With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes
Had no excuses for the things that we'd done
We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly
Young

Talked a good game when we were out with the guys
But in the back seat we were awkward and shy
Girls were a mystery that we couldn't explain
And I guess there are some things that are never gonna change

Man I don't know, where the time goes
But It sure goes fast, just like that
We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue
With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes
Had no excuses for the things that we'd done
We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly
Young
Young, Young, Yeah Wishin' we were older
Young, Hey I wish it wasn't over

Man I don't know, where the time goes
But It sure goes fast, just like that
We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue
With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes
Had no excuses for the things that we'd done
We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly
Young
Young, Hey wishin' we were older, wish it wasn't over
Kenny Chesney: "Young"

Fiction is the only way you're dealing, you turn your pretty head if it gets real....

2005-12-16T17:04:34Z

Oh yeah n Racherz! Call me sometime this week so we can hang k? ^_^ Love ya! *hugz n kissez!* Peace Out!

Stranger than your sympathy
This is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

I wish for things that I don't need
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free
All I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees

Oh yeah everything's all wrong yeah
Everything's all wrong yeah
Where the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
I take these things so I don't feel
I'm killing myself from the inside out
Now my head's been filled with doubt

It's hard to lead the life you choose
All I wanted
When all your luck's run out on you
All I wanted
You can't see when all your dreams are coming true

Oh yeah it's easy to forget yeah
You choke on the regrets yeah
Who the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
All these thoughts you stole from me
I'm not sure where I belong
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong

And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel
Before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk and all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
Yeah stranger than your sympathy stranger than your sympathy
-Goo Goo Dolls:"Sympathy"-

A failure at everything... 18 going on extinct.....

2005-12-16T16:55:16Z

Hey all! Long time no write, ey? Welp don't have tons of time at the moment, busy with errands en wat not b4 I go pick up da grls! Last time b4 Christmas! ^_^ Yep soooo....2 things, and one of them I need your help on! First off why in the HELL do I get hit on by grls and older guys all the time and never by any guys my own age? Sry but 30 is just a little too old for me! :-p Its annoying as all hell! Ok n now to the second part that I need help with! I need a cutesy, sexxi, sweet email name. My friends have givin me all verrrry dirrty things lol which is awesome but I want it cutesy/sweet/playful too! So yep that's my plea! An idea for my new email addy! Thanx! I'll be bak later with more to write! I miss you mommy! *hugz n kissez* I hope I hear from you soon! Eric's great...but he's not you! Love n kissez! Peace Out! ^_^

"Could you talk to me
Honestly
Cause I never heard a word you said now
And I ain't just being mean
Cause all we are is what we're told
And most of that's been lies
It's like a made for TV movie
And I just blew my line

Someday you never made it
and maybe it never will
Hey, you never made it
Ain't that unusual

Now I feel unknown
And it's safe that way
Are you too bored to care or too dumb to be scared now
What's that supposed to mean

I'm burned out on some empty reasons
Another waste of time
There's somethin' that I wish I'd said
But I don't think it'd rhyme

Someday you never made it
and maybe it never will
Hey, you never made it
And ain't that unusual

See I'd love to be you
At least then I'd see you
Sorry I put them words in your mouth
But you wouldn't talk to me

And everyhing, I want haven't got
I'm sick of everything now I'm not
I put my heavy coat on for a while
It's freezing in the corner of my mind

Someday you never made it
and maybe it never will
Hey, you never made it
Ain't that unusual?
-Goo Goo Dolls: "Ain't That Unusual?"-

So a day when u've lost urself completely could b a night when ur life endz...

2005-12-13T21:35:51Z

Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this line back

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

So how goes it all? Haven't updated in a long time...figured I'd give it a go while I help my Slacker sister with her project. What the hell ever happened to parents? *shrugs* Never had em, so I guess I don't really miss it. But still. Bleh, neways...shit going on...as usual. Watevernezz don't even wanna get into that. But a few good things...^_^ Like for instance Meli loves me so much she downloaded me two cds! The All American Rejects and Fall Out Boy...yaynezz! ^_^ lol so yeah...uhhh...actually I think that's it. Cept I've gotten to talk to Eric lately, although the reason why sux...not that I don't love talking to him...hmmm not coming out the way I intended. Watever, I doubt he reads this neways. But ya. This semester's almost over so that's a good thing I guess. That and Alyssa loves me! lol haha, had to add that just for her!

Don't solve the problem,
when danger is better.
Far away where you stock them
In cages that tether

And all the bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]
And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear i'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.
It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you now.
Change your mind.
And let go too soon.

Sit down, you're sinking,
there's no one to watch you.
Skip town, you're thinking,
there's no one to stop you.

And all the bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]

Don't run away,
Stop feeling fine.
It's better than your worst, your worst day.
No words to say, I'll give you mine,
and pocket all the hurt, and just stay.
Don't run away.
It's better than your worst, your worst day.

And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear i'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.

[Chorus]

Don't run away.
Change your mind.
And let go too soon.

lol k sry...really good song came on. Neways...uhhh wat else did I need to update about? Ummm, I got a new cellie. Pre-paid, which sux but it's still a fone! *happy dance* So ya...*sigh* I really should be doing my stupid Physics review er sumthin...blehness. I really don't feel like it tho. I love Physics...just right now I love the computer more. *hugs it* Lol ok that was weird. Newayz...uhhh ok I keep saying that a lot but I can't help it my mind is very scattered right now. The after effects of exams! That and Maggie's dirty images of Eric...naked...handcuffs...candles...bath...lol okay do I really need to say anymore? Didn't think so. But needless to say that is all that went through my mind while taking my damn AP Euro exam...thanks Magz! Lol eh watever. I don't care if I failed or passed that damn thing. Then Mr. Lay gave such an inspiring speech this morning about how we're all failures and we'll never make it in life. I was like last time I checked only God would know this...maybe I just didn't get the memo. Asshole. lol I'm sorry but he's just such an asshole. I use to defend him but now....pffft...fuck that shit. I'm so sick of being nice to ppl when all they wanna do is tear ppl down and be assholes. BLEH! lol that was lame but I'm just ehhh today. That and images keep popping into my head. Damn you Maggie!

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

lol sry nother song that popped into my head. Neways...ooooh explanation time for Magz...cuz Dina n Meli I'm pretty sure are all caught up on it. Yeah so he basically was just saying that I needed to lighten up, flirt, have a fling, just enjoy myself and that emotions didn't always need to be involved. Lol which made Dina mad and she was like "just because he wants you to be a whore doesn't mean you have to be one!" that and she wanted to kick his ass....Meli didn't say anything at all. Dina says that I shouldn't change because then I wouldn't be me. Which I guess is true, but...I will be the first to admit that I am not anywhere near perfect. Come on I mean...I'm not that cute, sry, just not. I have the worst mouth...I am always cursing or saying something dirty. I'm funny tho, lol that I will give myself cuz it's something I like about me. Shocking, isn't it? I'm way too violent and get angry pretty quick. I mean I nearly got arrested last Saturday for assault on four different punk ass boys. I'm way uptight when it comes to guys...I mean...I dunno, I can't see myself having a relationship let alone a fling, so ya know? I'm a total dork. Although I kind of like that ^_^! Dorks rule! lol...n I am way too scared to do anything even if I know I'm good at it. Why do you think I dropped out of chorus? I don't even let many ppl see my drawings or writing. So I'm such a major chicken...although sometimes not...like that time I threatened to kick that JV Football Player's ass for picking on Michael. He's my Teddy Bear, you can't pick on him! Although as Dina says "You threaten too many ppl for me to remember them all." Yeah so...that's a sign right there. Eh...I guess I'll come up with a list of things I like and dislike about myself...that might help. *sigh* Where's my mommy when I need her? Eh truthfully I'd just love to talk to her period, but she's disappeared. Which is why I get to talk to Eric. And Eric's great and all but...I dunno...I miss her cuz she's my mommy! And I miss Daddy Julian cuz he just goofs off all the time and that would definitely make me forget my troubles n Daddy Tinx...eh...so not going there, same goes for Daddy Neako or Daddy Andre...point is...I just want to talk to Anita! :( Well...she'll come around in her own time. I know she will. I don't care what any of them say...I have faith in her! *hugs n kisses to my foster family!* Alrighty...I'm off for now. I gotta help the brat...then I'll be back with my list of likes n dislikes...if you have anything to add, lemme know! I'm looking for total honesty...that's the only way I'll be able to solve this! Laterz Peeps! ^_^ Ya'll kno my new cellie, n if ya don't just hit me up and I'll let ya kno! Holla at your grl! ^_^

I know you
so better than the city in the rear view
I drive to
eliminate the ball that I'm chained to

Take me break me
every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you'll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

I'll stay strong
I'm pushing on the pedal till I break dawn
So I'm gone, go find another shoulder you can cry on

Take me break me
every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you'll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

All of the things that you knew that I'd try
All of the things that I held inside
All I gotta do is drive

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
you wrecked my life
so I'm gonna have to drive all night
-"Night Drive":The All American Rejects-

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-11-15T15:28:00

2005-11-15T20:28:47Z

Hello all! Quik update here b4 I pick up the girls. Well first things first. I almost lost one of my best friends yesterday. You all know her from my email addy...after all it is nanna loves her tori n BARBIE...yep. Britni was on her way to school with Donna and they stopped at the gas station I always go to, the one on Henderson and Dale Mabry and sum guy followed them into the store, just stood around at the door n then walked back out around the side of the building so I guess they didn't think much of it. Well they came out and were getting into the car and they guy grabbed Brit's arm and her door, so she got away as quick as she could n jumped into the car, locking the door. Well she turns to say something to Donna but stops. Donna's face is just empty, of everything...just void. N goes "Britni...he has a gun." She thought it was just sum coked up kid startin shit so she's like yeah rite, n turns back to find a gun pointed directly at her. He told her that if she didn't unlock the door n get out he was going to shoot the handle off and then her. Donna grabbed her cell and dialed 911, as soon as he saw that he hauled ass. They still haven't found him. Talk about a wake up call, huh? So yesterday was pretty damn intense, today too considering it's kind of like...wow...I could have just lost my best friend over something as stupid as a car. She even showed me the scratches n shit on her window from his banging the gun on it. *shakes head* And this was at a busy intersection corner at 7 AM, in broad daylight, with plenty of traffic. N no one bothered to do anything. Thank God that scared him away tho, because God only knows what would have happened otherwise. So yeah. That is the intense experience of the week. Not much else so far, pfft...like anything could really top that tho? So yep. There's more from the weekend n plans fer this week n wat not but I'd rather go e-mail my mommy first. Love to all of you! Major love! That's one think I definitely want to make clear, especially after wat just happened. *hugz n kissez* laterz!

SBK...SBK
Alive...Alive We Comin' Up!
Nina Sky...Whos This?
N.O.R.E, Da-ddy Yan-kee
Gem Star...Gem Star Big Nato..(Big Nato)
C'mon,..C'mon

Whoa...Whoa...Whoa...Whoa
What U Say?

Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Dominicano (HA!) Colombiano (HA!)
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Cubano (HA!) Mexicano (HA!)
Oye Mi Canto

You See This Is What Whey Want,
They Want Reggaeton,
WHAT? WHAT?
They Want Reggaeton,

Esto Lo Que Quieren,
Toma Reggaeton,
QUE? QUE?
Toma Reggaeton,

You See, I'm N.O.R.E. Keep My Story,
My Story I Always Kick It QUE?
When I Bone Shorty I Slap Culo And Listen QUE?

Soy El Gem Estrella Cuando Canto Lo Que Dicen, WHAT?
Una Nalgada En El Culo Ella Grita, WHAT?

See Her Booty Gotta Rep For It's Own,
I Be For Auto San Juan, Biamon,

Sol En Campo Santiago, Tabacco Y Rome,Aya En Puerto-Rico Con Bacardi Limón
Ahh This All That
You Can Tell Spanky On it
The Remix To The Remix With Yankee On It
Este Un Mofongo, Un Chin Y Con N.O.R.E. On It
Un Reggaeton Con Gem Star Y Big Nato On It

chorus:
Whoa...Whoa...Whoa...Whoa
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Dominicano (HA!) Colombiano (HA!)
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Cubano (HA!) Mexicano (HA!)
Oye Mi Canto

Daddy Yankee
Suena El Cantinaje
Para Que Sientan El Encaje
Todo En La Pista Muevase Contra Salvaje Yee
Siggity Daddy Yankee Give It To Them Yee
Esto Es Lo Que Ringa En La Callee
Todos Mis Latino En Los Bloque Haora Stand Up
Oye MI Canto Con El N.O.R.E. Haora Dembow
Mueva Ese Bum, Bum, Bum, Mami No Pierda El Siento
Whos This? DA-DDY

And This, The First Time Its Ever Been Done
Because There's Never Been
A Raper Doin Reggaeton Album And He A Veteran
Padrino, While Layin At The Cino
No Matter Your Race Because You Know Your Latino

Daddy Yankee
Yee
Todos Mis Latino En Los Bloque Haora Stand Up
Oye MI Canto Con El N.O.R.E. Haora Dembow
Mueva Ese Bum, Bum, Bum, Mami No Pierda El Siento
Whos This? DA-DDY

chorus:
Whoa...Whoa..Whoa...Whoa
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Dominicano (HA!) Colombiano (HA!)
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Cubano (HA!) Mexicano (HA!)
Oye Mi Canto

Venga Ver,
Venga Ver, Lo Que Tengo Yo PARA TI!
Ya Siento Que Sin Ti No Puedo Vivir
MAMI...MAMI...MAMI...(MAMI)
Hey..Hey..Hey..(Hey)
Oye Mi Canto
Mira Con Mundo Linda
Yo Le Canto Mira Asea Norte Ami Hermano
Yo La Mando...Mando
Hey...Hey...Hey...(Hey)

chorus:
Whoa...Whoa...Whoa...Whoa
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Dominicano (HA!) Colombiano (HA!)
Boriqua HA! Morena (HA!) Dominicano (HA!) Colombiano (HA!)
Oye Mi Canto

SBK Da Beast, Gem Star & Nato, Nina Sky Wassup Girls
Rest In Peace, Big Pun, Vala I Know You Would Of Loved This
Rest In Peace To My Father, Mambo This Is For Yall, Yeah
Shouts To All The DJ's Playin That Reggaeton Early
DJ. Carmelo, DJ. Enough, Cipper Sounds, Chris Bucks, Tony Touch
Jerry Chub, DJ. Cale, Phally Phel, La Mega
Latino Mix, Let's Go
C'mon,..C'mon.
Nore:"Oye Mi Canto"

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-11-08T15:02:00

2005-11-08T20:09:09Z

Ohhh...n yeah, Magz, we're still on fer this weekend rite? Oohhh n yeah, fer Dina's b-day I'm takin her to see Pride n Prejudice cuz she practically flooded Boette's room with drool when she saw the ad. She's dying to see it, so yeah, Friday nite cool? N then Saturday college junk! lol you might change your mind about moving in with me tho! lol so you better think that one over fer a while b4 we get an apartment...I can be very annoying, as I'm sure you know, so think about that!!!!! Lol but also on pity's side....remember those other ppl that want to move in with me and I don't have the heart to say no to...*hides behind Magz* You n Barbie are the only ones that protect me from them. You know how I am with them! I can't say no to my friends, not wen it'll hurt their feelings. Without you n Barbie I'd be seriously screwed and moving in with far too many ppl who continuously hit on me....ummm...did I mention...HELP! lol so yeah. But if you don't wanna move in with me that's cool, I mean, I know it was your idea n all but still, ya mite have been high at the time er something, lol. So yeah. K welp, I'm off. Oooooh n yea, I told ya already rite? That I talked to Shannon for ya and she said to call her up n if you can like sell her something over the fone she'll give ya a job? If not, I just did. So call her!!!! I talked to her about it for you, not cuz I enjoy airing your bizness lol. LOVE YOU! *huggles* N stop texting Thomas n start textin Mommy and our Daddys!! I miss them!!! *sniffles* Love yaz! *hugz n kissez* Peace Out! ^_^

You and I got something
But it's all then it's nothing to me
yah
I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions to me
yah
And we wake up in the breakdown
In the things we never thought we could be
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To this sound of dispollution in me
yah
And I was not the answer so forget you if ever thought it was me
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need a fall out
Of all the past that's here between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
I can fear you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone
Goo Goo Dolls: "Here is Gone"

Owwwie

2005-11-08T19:47:40Z

Hello all! Long time no see....ummm lemme just get out the basics...I had to give Hanson back because my dad's an ass...but I got two new kittens, brother n sister. The gray one is a grl, her name is Kyo LeeLee Kaede, and the black one is her brother and his name is Makoto "Mako" Haru Tatsuki. ^_^ Maggie n Steph helped me name em from my name list...so yeah. Nnnnnn I think that's it for basics...*shrugs* lots to tell, but not a lot of time because I have to go pick Sarah and Airhead up from school soon, n I have a stupid Physics test tomorrow n haven't really been in class much...but lol ooooh yeah, I've learned a few things about wat my friends think of me. According to Roxy at her n Maddz Halloween Party I am the life of the party, Melissa says I lower her inhibitions, Daniel n Dina both think it's impossible to be with me and NOT get into trouble, and Dina, Daniel and Melissa equate my effect on ppl to drugs...lmao...not sure how much of this I should take as a compliment or an insult...lol but wat the hell! ^_^ N something else Dina said reminded Daniel of me but he "forgot" wat it was...lol more like he didn't want to say it. ^_^ lol so yeah....ummmm....yep pretty much it for the low down...oh except being a grl sux, cramps suck, lmao...ya...oooooh n guys SUCK BIG TIME! lol I keep drooling and it sucks...lol so things suck except for my friends and my Mommy Anita and my daddys! ^_^ Ha...really lame but I have to post this quick b4 I change my mind or regret it. I was walking Daniel to class and talking to him and all, the usual, and when I passed by him he was looking at me and when I glanced over and met his eyes he kinda did that duck the head n eyes thing like "uh damn, they caught me" lol kinda thing...so something as small as that has made me very giddy..lol pathetic. You can probably tell since my mind is jumping around and wat not. Oh well, watever. I've got great friends and the best mommy n daddys anyone could have, Magz agrees too!, so who needs a guy? lol oooooh geez...that reminded me Maggie made up a very dirty game which we named Spin, Roll, Yum....lol ya....scary I know.... Owww, oww, oww damn...k I've gotta go now, lots of pain. Dammit. I keep having heart palpatations and panic attacks, like I'm being suffocated or stabbed...god damn it hurts. K well I'ma go do something to take my mind off of it. Love yaz! *huggles* Laterz!

(My favorite Goo Goo Dolls Song!!!! *dances* I LOVE THE GOO GOO DOLLS!!!)
They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway

Goo Goo Dolls:"Acoustic #3"

Bleh....

2005-10-08T06:27:14Z

Tonite was very...iffy. I got season three of Sliders and two of 21 JumpStreet so that's cool, then Janie and I headed up to the game to meet Ash n Tony, so everything was ok at first. It kinda sucked because none of them are all school spirity like me so I really needed Barbie, Meli, and Daniel, lol sad I know. But so it just kinda sucked, n by the end of the first damn quarter we were down 21 freakin points! I wanted to cry! :( Then during half time we went off in search of Brett cuz Ash n Janie, mostly Ash, were dyin to finally meet him after all I'd said about him. So we found him, YAY!!! *dances* So I got lots of hugs from him! Even though we had to stay on the enemy's side. But fer Brett, I'll make an exception ^_^. Damn his team for kickin our asses tho! :( We lost 31 to 14....dammmmmmit!!! And I hung out with him for a while, crackin jokes n protectin him from Ash for halftime, the third quarter, n most of the fourth, lol poor friends of his I kept him from. And we all goofed around, which was great because I miss Brett soooo much! I haven't seen him in months, or even talked to him! :( Lol he was like uhhhh don't bring those ppl bak. lol the only one he liked was Tony, he picked on Ash a bit, which is unusual for him, but he was kinda like...uh...wat freaks, lol poor Brett. He was like you can never collect normal friends, and I was like nah they're too boring lol. I was like besides I'm louder than all of em, n Brett's like yeah, I can believe that. ^_^ I love Brett!!!!! (Makin this super short by the way cuz I have to meet Brit in like 5 hours b4 the SAT) Then Tony came back and some how we got onto the topic of ages n he was like wait I thought you said Brett was 18, I was like uh no. He's younger than me by like a year, year n a half. If I said someone was 18 I was prolly talking about another guy. Tony goes, Yeah cuz you have a shitload of guys. I was like lol riiiight. Brett steps in and says "It's not her fault. She can't help it. Guys just gravitate towards her." LMAO....I love Brett so much. He's wrong. But I love him. *Huggles him* Then I was like yeah n most of them are older n listed a few age groups, lol to which he was like uh.... and I was like most of em are jocks or watever n hes like so then they're all big guys. Then they can all protect you. I just grinned at him and shook my head, I was like yeah, but I don't need them to. lol he agreed. And then he was like I feel bad for you, what you have to put up with them-cuz God knows what they were doing by now. I was like I know, and I walk down those hallways with them, can you imaging my reputation now? It's probably ruined. Lol. He's like yeah, I can imagine. Lol, although I already have a very violent reputation, lol to which he also agreed. I was like hey, I have to walk Daniel to class just to keep him from getting beat up, lol. N a few times he was like yeah, Nanna'll protect me, or Protect me Nanna, lol from Ash. I missed him soooo much! It was great. Then I asked him if he was comin to my B-Day party n he was like I'll definitely try, so I said you have to come or I'll cry. So he goes, ok then I definitely have to go. Lol he's so sweet! So I'm gonna call him not next weekend but the weekend after since I'm werkin all week n weekend, to go do something. *dances* I miss him so much! So that was defnitely a huge highlight to my night. Then we ran off and were watching the Marine booth thing they had set up and all these kids doin the pull up bar and what not, and someone said something to me so I turn around to answer them n low and behold who is standing over there on the track looking at the grl doin the pull ups, Julian. Figures, ey? So I clue my friends in and Tony was like I so owe you for wat you did last time, but it's so evil I just can't do it to you. So I'm drooling n trying to ignore him, damn I'm so pathetic. Then we finally leave and I'm trying not to look at him and Janie starts waving to him and he just stares at her, lol so I drag her off and while I'm dealing with her the minute he turns our way again Tony points at me, does a huge heart in the air and then points at Julian....I am so freakin cursed. But I was just like fuck it. And we got into our cars n headed up to Village Inn, n everything's cool, we're messin with our waiter, all hittin on him cuz Ashley likes him, n he remembered her name so she's all yayness...lol. I get a call from Brit, talked to her about Brett, who I love! lol he's such a sweetie! And by the time I'm off the fone, World War 3 has broken out. Tony and Ashley are having a huge fight over her dressing like a slut n all sorts of shit, I mean they were loud as hell, ppl kept lookin our way and wen our waiter came back with refills on our drinks he sets them down and goes ooooh my god...n runs off as fast as he can, poor guy, but he got nearly a $30 tip so not so poor guy. So it gets so ridiculous that I'm stickin up for Ash now tellin him that most of wat he's sayin is shit cuz Stephanie lied about all that shit, that most of the time I'm with Ash n them and he can believe me wen I say that's shit. N finally she just gets fed up with it and takes off, n for the rest of the night that's what were stuck on till I dropped Tony off. And fuckin 5 minutes later after she takes off I get a call from Stephanie n shes like my grandmother wants you to tell Tony that she doesn't like Ashley being called a slut or a whore, n I was pissed that this shit was draggin out n pullin them in when it wasn't their place so I just go well then she shouldn't let her dress like one. And a few minutes later I could hear her grandmother in the background yelling at me and Tony and I was like wtf?! I was standing up for her! N half the time I was on the damn fone, I'm so sick of this shit, so fuckin just don't talk to me ever again, either one of you! N hung up, I was so pissed that I got dragged into that shit, then Ashley called n I yelled at her n she was like I'll fix it, I'll fix it. So she straightened things out with her gma but I was still pissed n I'd taken Tony home now and was takin Janie home n she didn't want to go yet either tho so we stopped at a few convenience stores so she could get comic books n then headed back up to Wal-Mart to chill for a while n finally I am home...tired, cranky, n giddy/pathetic as fuck...lol. Yep so that was my fuckin iffy nite. It was good cuz I went to a football game, saw Brett *happy dance* and then saw Julian, *drools*. But it sucked ass cuz we lost, I saw Julian, *drools* Which makes me seriously pathetic, and then all that drama....but watever. Eventually all this shit will be over. And I can soooo not wait for that. But I'm gonna miss Brett especially tho! *huggles him* Oooooh n one more thing, seriously, I'm so sick of ppl trash talkin Daniel n makin fun of him and the next one to do it is either gettin seriously hurt or I'm just never talkin to ya again, maybe both, depends on my mood. But I'm so sick of you guys being down on him. Ashley was doin it again tonite talking about how much of a douche of a boyfriend Daniel was. Which is such shit! Daniel is one of the nicest guys I have ever met, so what if he's dorky or tells lame jokes occasionally n drives like an old lady lol sry babe but ya do. So what? He's a really nice guy n has a great personality, n even those who hate him won't deny that. So fuckin lay off of him. I hate seeing him flinch or go all defensive n like protect his damn face whenever you guys say something or turn like you're gonna hit him again. He doesn't deserve that and I'm so sick of seeing him react that way. So fuckin lay off, seriously. You wanna fuck with somebody, deal with me. I deserve that a hell of a lot more then Daniel, got it? Good. Glad to know we're clear, n if we aren't, then you'll just have to learn the hard way. Ack...k, I sound super bitchy right now. I'm goin to bed so I can take that lame ass SAT at the fuckin crack of dawn. Laterz. *huggz n kissez* NITE! LOVE YOU MOMMY N DADDIES! ^_^

I study up my hollow
Piece of wood to follow
A day that doesn't come
To the lucky

And I realize there's tomorrow
But I would rather wallow
In the rain then moods that seem
So pot-lucky

Well I'm cruising El Paseo
In my off-white coup back '65
Or I'm cruisin down my own street
And my hooptie says to me
You better hang on to your bench seat
I'm gonna take you for a ride

And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know

But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home

So I wait for fate to find me
A ball of string unwind me
Uncomfortable as a centerfold

And I realize your behind me
To help and humankind me
To see my songs can be retold

Well I'll be gone tomorrow
Yes I'm on the road tomorrow
So next time that I see you in school
It won't be for too long

And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know

But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home

And I want a leather jacket
But only if I have the time
Well, I'll comb my hair like Elvis
And grab an old Gretch 59

And you'd hardly recognize me if you
Saw me from behind

And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know

And I'll let you know
When it comes
Just when it comes
I'll let you know

But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home

And I'll let you know
I'll let you know
Well I'll let you know

-Tyler Hilton:"When It Comes"-

Randomnezz....

2005-10-06T20:25:47Z

I have another new daddy named...haha...Julian. Go figure. ^_^ He's a little whore, lol just kidding daddy, I love you. Even if you are a shameless flirt. And yes you are babe, sorry. ^_^ So yep! I have 4 daddies and apparently mommy is in search of yet another, this one tho she says is a permanent one. OOOOOOHHHH lol and we get a group shot of our family, or most of them around Christmas time!!!! Yay!!!! *dances around* So great! ^_^ Yep yep, good news since everything else blows. And my werk schedule is gonna suck ass. I work Friday, Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday....lol damn man. And most are 8 hour shifts or more...bleh. But I need the money badly, so yayness. Ooooooh n tomorrow night we play Hillsborough!!! YAY!!! That means Brett is coming! *happy dance* I haven't seen him in sooooo long and I miss him!!!! *huggles him* And Britni's like remember how he used to be reallly tall and lanky, I was like ya. haha...uh not anymore. Now he's got a great tan, he's even more perverted than when he left for his dad's this summer cuz he spent so much time with his older brothers annnnd he's got actual muscle. lol so apparently he's ten times hotter. *shrugs* Brett's great period, so I don't really care. He's so sweet! Yayness!!! *happy happy dance* So that's cool....and lol one really weird statement that I have to say...one of my uh guy friends...lol not saying who, buuuuut....ok he was talking about his grades today and he thought his parents would kill him cuz he thought he was gonna get a really bad grade in English, so I was all like it's ok, I'm sure you did fine. Cuz he's really smart and all, so I was patting him on the arm and I was like...wahhhhhh. lol he actually has muscle now. *drools* I don't even like guys with like tons of muscle like some of the guys at my school but he has like...lol the good kind? ha that sounds retarded. lol but I have no other way to put it. The point is it was very hard not to hold on to his arm. :p So I just kept like patting him on the arm...lmao, jk. I only did it like twice, because then we were talking about Mike and Julian lol so itz all good. But I've been noticing that for the past couple of weeks maybe? Its very nice, lol believe me. Ha k, annnnyways. Thats it unless you want my rant on whores? lol didn't think so. ^_^ So yep, I'm just gonna stay away from whores, especially manwhores...Michael excluded, lol I can't help it! I love Jailbait our sexxi little manwhore! Lmao...damn teddy bear that he is. Everytime one of us goes I LOVE YOU MICHAEL! He's like who doesn't? lmao...next time I'm gonna kick him er something...haha..I prolly couldn't tho, cuz I just love my Freshman! K welp I'm off to return to evil, pointless college essays for colleges I'll never get into! YAY! lmao....riiight. Anywayz, laterz! *hugz n kissez* Love you Mommy! And I guess I love Julian too...*pouts* Even tho he doesn't talk to me n sissy nearly enuff! lol ok so I still love him, damn him. *hugz n kisses* Bye!!!

Everywhere you go, perfection
Follows you the wrong direction
And you will never see if for
You get all that you need and more
You see it, you want it
You find it, it's yours

But you can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life needed something special
Then where it's at
And aren't you glad

The only one of 5; exception
The child of your pride, deception
And on your list of things to do
Is make me fall in love with you
You find one, you want one
Cause I'm one, who plays

You can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life needed something special
Which you don't have

You can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Rest and wake anyway that you want
You said your life needed something special
Well, here I am, and aren't you glad.

Now you got it bad
I know you do

You can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life needed something special
Then where you're at

And you can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Rest and wake anyway that you want
You said your life needed something special
Which you don't have
Well, aren't you glad
Well, aren't you glad
Well, aren't you glad
-Tyler Hilton: "Glad"-

Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in my wooden shoes
In a wedding gown

Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue
-Tyler Hilton: "When the stars go blue"-

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-09-27T16:51:00

2005-09-27T20:58:57Z

Wow...I really must have been amazingly loud last week lol like everyone said cuz my voice is still not completely back. Wen I try to protest things or sing er watever my voice comes out all squeaky or not at all. lol so yep. But anyways. Lotz to type, and so little time. Specially since I'm sooo tired right now. But one big thing is that I am now adopted! lol. Tinx said that he and Anita should adopt be and Maggie, lol so Tinx is our new Daddy and Anita is our new Mommy...lol well maybe not for sure since Maggie was having dirty, kinky thoughts about our father! Bad Maggie! Please re-adopt us! I'll make Maggie behave! Please! *cries* I want new parents! lol ^_^ You're now saved as Mommy Anita in my fone anyways, lol Maggie's too, she told me she was changing it today. So yayness! Oh hey lollipop go with us to the game Friday! I'll show you HIM cuz hopefully he'll be there. I never see him anywhere but at school or school events, so *crosses fingers* Plus it's fun as hell! ^_^ Yep k well I'm gonna go do my hmwk and nap cuz I'm tired and I have to werk tomorrow. Love you!!!! *huggles*

Up and away to stay
awhile in the arms of fate
where did we start this crush?
The question could stop my heart.

Ssun on your skin
all smiles
a star at your side
you fly
hands on the wheel, held tight
don't you let go, just give it time

Tell me all you hear is our song,
like a siren on the 101
Did you come to say so long?
I was sure we had just begun
tell me all you hear is our song.
I know I can't be the only one.
But you and me we are a breakthrough.
Just forget the rearview
don't ever let me go.

Was it a test?
This crime a footnote in your meantime?
A shot in the dark when I was certain we had come so far?
but I've got a light to blind a vision of doubt
tonight the song on my lips will fly
and follow you home wherever you go

Tell me all you hear is our song,
like a siren on the 101
did you come to say so long?
I was sure we had just begun
tell me all you hear is our song.
I know I can't be the only one.
But you and me we are a breakthrough.
just forget the rearview
don't ever let me go.

Where'd you go? What'd you want to know?
What did you come all this way for?
Where'd you go? What'd you want to know?
What is the luster worth so much more?
Where'd you go? What'd you want to know?
I wonder if my heart can tie up the score
Where'd you go? What'd you want to know? [x2]

All I hear is our song,
I don't care 'bout the damage done
so turn it up and sing sing along,
I still feel like we've just begun
all I hear is our song,
I know I can't be the only one
But you and me we are a breakthrough,
just forget the rearview
don't ever let me go.

Tell me all you hear is our song,
like a siren on the 101
did you come to say so long?
I was sure we had just begun
tell me all you hear is our song.
I know I can't be the only one.
But you and me we are a breakthrough.
just forget the rearview
don't ever let me go.
Let me go [x2]
-Over It: "Siren on the 101"-

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-09-22T16:30:00

2005-09-22T20:44:54Z

Ha...very ironic that this song is on while I'm logging on to write this...welp I'll at least put up my proud and yet so pathetic moment before what I originally planned on writing, cuz then maybe you'll understand it a little more...well ok here goes. Today after 7th Ashley was waiting fer me and I was walking Daniel to class, as usual, although I alternate between Daniel n Meli, but anyways so the three of us were walkin down the hall and as usual I'm being pathetic and looking for HIM, but I figured he'd left early er something since I hadn't seen him after 5th like I usually do and Ashley said something so retardedly funny and I was laughin and smilin and just talkin with them when I glance over and there he is, so instead of droppin the smile and turning away as quick as possible now that his gaze has met mine...I smiled wider AT him. Yeah, so that's my pathetically proud moment. That was a pretty big step tho for me. So yeah. K well anyways, the reason I was really coming on is that I dunno actually...lol. But this song is really ironic because some of it is exactly what I'm thinking. I've been totally into this one guy since the first day of school, I'm too chicken to even talk to him and there are tons of other things I have yet to write about or tell ppl but the point is that it all comes down to this one thing...I need to completely forget about him. He's disrupting my life and that's not cool. I don't get into guys like this, especially considering I'm too afraid to even talk to him. I try to avoid him and not look at him when I can't avoid him but it doesn't werk. Somebody always brings him to my attention or makes a comment about him or that reminds me of him and I just can't stop thinking about him and it is seriously pissing me off. Everything I read or listen to it reminds me of HIM. The more I try to forget him the harder it is and the more often I run into him, but the minute I really want to run into him he's no where to be found. God is seriously like punishing me here or something. This is massive karma for something awful I've done and it sux majorly. Well I don't have much time to write cuz I have to go pick up my sister and get ready to go, I'm suppose to be goin to see my Aka in the play tonite...but I'll be back to bitch you can be sure of it. Laterz! *huggs* Love ya Anita!!!

P.S. I know this isn't the song I was listenin to but this definitely means something to me and reminds me a hell of a lot of HIM.

I've got to see you
Wherever you are
And I've got to be there
I'm wishing on stars
I've got to reveal what's inside of my heart
But the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby

Honestly I know it's silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby

-Mariah Carey: "I Wish You Knew"-

Pictures!

2005-09-20T03:57:24Z

Friends at Panther Prowl! (More soon!)

Me n Michael! Ah I love him! ^_^

Big Group Shot!

Daniel n Ash!

Daniel dancin! lol

Daniel n his Iraqi cheerleader...lmao

Aka in her sexxi hat!

Magz n Thomas!

Kevin n Ash! (Damn Kevin's fine!!!! lol he's gorgeous! He's also the funny, sweet guy that stripped that one time! ^_^ YUM!)

Homecomin scoreboard!

Wonder Woman, Sailor Moon, and Quail Man..lol

POST IT MAN!!! LOL I LOVE YOU MICHAEL!

Julina n Daniel!

Daniel N Janie dancin!

Daniel, Janie, n Ash bein silly at da homecomin game!

Magz, Meli, N Janie in da arcade b4 homecomin!

Woot woot! ^_^ That's it fer now! I'm off to bed! laterz, love yaz!

P.S. I've got a few pics of HIM, lol tho none that he's all smilin in cept the one with that chick :( I'll e-mail it to ya! Love you Anita!

You put
so much effort in to it
Does it feel good to hurt someone
Trying to make you proud
You put
So much effort in to it
Does it make you feel good
A kiss wont this make this better
This is my last good bye
A kiss wont make this better
A kiss wont make this right
I know you got my letter
Just unlock the door
Are you sitting down
I think you might want to
It seems you have everything
Under control, this is my life
One thing to hold on to
-Lorene Drive:"A Kiss Won't Make This Better"-

Back...

2005-09-20T02:55:02Z

K back....Uh...oh yeah werk. I went in at 8, n Robbie was gonna cover my second half of the shift otherwise i would have been there until 6 n then Ida let me leave early at 12 cuz I still had to Janie's hair and get myself ready. But while I was there this damn dog bit my wrist. Maximus. He's really protective and all I guess, n he was in a suite with this other dog Charlie even tho they aren't from the same family, and Charlie came to the door and was all pet me, pet me. lol so I did n he got mad and bit my wrist, but I yanked my wrist back as quick as I could b4 he could break the skin. He was an American Pitbull...go figure. Then wen I tried to close the top half of the door he tried again. So I left n went back to werk on the other suites n finally had to go bak to theirs cuz they'd made a mess n they needed to be fed n let out, but he looked at me like he couldn't wait to bite me again so I was like fuck that and closed the thing and left...lol Ida sent Carlos up to take care of him. Poor Carlos. So that was that, then I had a few things to take care of wen I left n picked up the car n took Janie to get some hair dye n then back to her house where I died the like ends of her hair hot pink...lol oh man I died my whole freakin hand bright like magenta and couldn't get it off...lmao...we used everything we could, dish soap, shampoo, gel, hair spray, ajax, lysol..lol all of it...and the AJax werked best but my hand is still kinda magenta...ha great. Then we headed up to werk to show Ida, lol n we had to break into the place cuz it was locked n everyone was in the kennel. Unfortunately Ida wasn't there tho n we had her meet us back at my gmas to see Janie's hair and she loved it. Her and Ed gave us twenty bux for dinner and was like have fun, take lots of pictures! We want to put em up in the apartment. We're like their adopted daughters even tho they have 2 grown ones. ^_^ Then we hurried n got ready, ran to my aunt's so she could do my hair n makeup, then back to my moms where I did Janie's makeup n she was all, I look like a druggie...lol I'm gonna kick her later. Then off to pick up Magz n Meli. We finally got to the hotel, thinkin we were gonna be late n wound up early. We took pics, hung out in the arcade and eventually went in...it was so much fun. We spent forever takin pics, occasionally attemptin to dance, but it was waaaay too crowded...it was more like molestin those around you. N we grabbed a table bein the first there of our group n I was watchin the door pathetically for HIM n then I finally went off to dance n the jerk gets there...damn him. So I spent my night pathetically droolin over him wenever I saw him. N Magz went up to him and was like can I get a pic for yearbook, so he grabbed this chick n they smiled n posed...damn you Maggie I'm pathetic n want that damn pic!!!! lol so yeah. Neways, this dumbass got so wasted, like a lot of kids there n puked next to our table n passed out. The APs came n dragged him off n it was kinda funny cuz Mr. Nelson's so short n this kid was over six feet...ha. So yeah. Too crowded n too many drunk kids. We tried gettin onto the dance floor , n cuttin through it n all that to find friends and we came out soaked with sweat, it was like walkin into a sauna we were dripping wet...n the gross thing is most of it wasn't even our own. Ppl were sweatin all over each other...so not sanitary. Uh lemme see wat else that's really all that important or interesting...hmm...omg...this dude cut through some of my friends and like ran into me, practically rubbin all over me n molestin me and I was like wtf n turned to look at him n he looks down at me like he's just seen me n goes oh sorry...lol I was covered in his sweat...*dies* lol so yeah....Hmmm...not much else big at the dance besides my patheticness...oooooh lol then a group of us went out onto the dance floor n were dancing and screamin/singin along to "Save a horse, ride a cowboy" then "Redneck Woman" lol it rocked! Ha oh then Greenday came on, and I don't even like them. I really hate their music, I Think they are so overrated but we moshed to it anyways...lol it was so much fun bein in a moshpit, but I quit like halfway through it cuz it was just too hot and I was covered in my sweat n everyone elses...yuck. But it was fun. Hmmm...oohhh lol...I got blackmail pics of Daniel AND Michael. Michael grindin with some chik...lol the wrong way I might add, ha...then Ash asked Micael to take a pic of her n Janie jumpin wit the cop ha but he took the camera and made a dash for it, so I grabbed him by the tie n pulled him back, lol he was really surprised he looked at me like whoa, lol but the lil adorable punk still would not give up the cam n then finally after me n Ash were strugglin with him I just smacked his ass, n he was so shocked he jumped forward n dropped the camera rite into my hand. lol I grinned at him n he looked at me like whoa, then did his pervert look like oh yeah baby n then ran off...lol lil manwhore that he is. Then afterwards Ash was gonna go to this party in one of the hotel rooms with ppl she didn't even really know n Daniel was like, uh no I'm ridin with Anna n goin with them to eat, cuz poor guy's car had broke down on the way to the dance and had to go back n get Ash's car. So we all went over to Thomas' n hung out cuz his parents are out of town. Then headed up to Village Inn to eat cuz we'd found out that's where Michael was and we love Michael *huggles him* We got hugs n the lil pimp was there with ALL grls, like eleven of em! lol. So we all hung out n goofed off...got lots of hugs from Michael even tho he was all soaked with sweat, him n Daniel both. Then he came over to take a pic of us n this time did not run off with the camera, n then a lil while came back cuz they were leavin n leaned forward into the booth to hug me, I was all "I want a hug" n he hugged me lol and was like I'm all gross, like he was warnin me so I just hugged him tighter, n was like that's ok it's you. ^_^ then he gave Ash a hug n turned back to me n leaned forward to whisper something in my ear and I scooted forward n he said somehtin, somethin, ok that's it, bye. N grabbed my keys off the table n ran off, throwin em into his pocket. lol so I chased after him n smacked him. ^_^ He gave me that oh yeah baby, perv look again, another hug n my keys back. ^_^ I LOVE MICHAEL!!!! lol he's just so damn adorable! Him n Daniel are both like my lil bros. I love em. Ha oh n Ash stabbed Daniel in the leg with a fork...lmao....it was so funny...ha so ya, there's the really long short version. I didn't even get home till a lil after 3 in da mornin. Then got up early the next day to chill wit some friends n run errands. But it was allll so much fun! *dances* lol k well...ha, that's all. ^_^ I'm gonna go upload some pics n then get ready fer bed. School brite n early! Oh joy! Not...lol so yeah. It was fun, but god must hate me cuz he was there everywhere I turned. I just want to completely forget him. Well, laterz! LOVE YAZ! *huggs* Love you Anita!!! I'll email you soon but you better text/call me soon since you texted Maggie! I feel so unloved! love you!

I feel the rhythm in your body
And I know you felt it too
I feel it when your near me
How could I ever forget you
I got a pocket full of roses
These thorns are sticking in my side
I didn’t lie when I told you
I simply never ever lie
All I have are promises you gave to me
You haven’t broken yet
I feel the rhythm in your body and I know
you felt it too. I surrender so regretful, how
Could I ever forget you
I love the rhythm in your body
And I know you love it too
I love it when your near me
How could I ever forget you
Your best bet is some bad advice
So just paint me white because I surrender
Forever
-Lorene Drive: "A Song In The Key Of Sex"-

HOMECOMING!!!!!

2005-09-20T02:51:40Z

Whew...what a weekend man! Er, well, week actually. Tuesday Ash and I did twin day, Wednesday was decades day and I dressed up as a punk rock 80's chick with Magz! ^_^ Lol...then Thursday was Superhero day...lol and no I didn't dress up for that but Ash, Maddz, Alyssa, n Michael did...lol I love Michael! Ash was wonder woman, Maddz was Sailor Moon, Alyssa was Quailman and Michael...lmao he came as Post It Man! ^_^ Friday was black and gold cuz it was our homecoming football game...which we won!!! Yeah baby! It was a shut out game, 21 to zip! *dances* man oh man do I ever have to tell you about that...Wednesday was Panther Prowl n Saturday the Homecoming Dance...and I have pics from all of it! ^_^ Tho my cam was bein a bitch so I gotta get da pics from other ppl too....so lol yeah. Uh, k oh let's start with Panther Prowl, which, for those of you who don't know, is a major pep rally for Homecoming...and it rocked! My friends were the loudest there, and I was by far the absolute loudest person there....and I mean the loudest out of a stadium full of people. Which was awesome! I wasn't a soprano 1 for nothin thank you very much. So yeah, lol. It rocked and I so wanted to cry when I was down there with all the other Seniors burnin the PHS which is the greatest Senior tradition. We all chanted 06, which kicked major ass. Then we all screwed around, chasin each other down and huggin each other, tryin to keep from crying. Tho we had tons of good laughs and we danced and sang and screamed all through the thing...lol especially when Daniel came on for his club's float...lol they had to dress in drag and dance...haha while we were waiting we started chanting and screaming bring us the drag queens...lol so yeah. And HE was there....ha...lol I almost died. Then I saw HIM again after the Prowl on the way out the gate and Magz was like I'll scream nice piece of ass, lol so we circled back and just as we were gonna walk by him again he put on his headphones, as usual, and headed out...so we were walkin behind him and Magz screams "Oh yeah baby! Nice ass!" lol omg I almost died. He turned around and just kinda looked around and I moved away from Magz n Meli just as Magz screamed "Yeah, that's right! I'm talking to you!" lol...oh god...it was so funny. He knew it was them too so I just kind of separated myself and then ran out into the parking lot...lol man. So anyways we'd been separated from Janie and Ash so we just went to the car where we found them, the radio turned all the way up and dirty dancing around the car...lol so we joined in. Ash tried to break dance and nearly killed us...lol but man everyone kept watching us, and this family even walked by and started clapping wen we gave Janie her lil solo dance...lol we danced around the car until we ran out of songs and almost everyone was gone. Then headed to Sonic for limeades and goofed off, they were makin fun of me about HIM...n oh god Janie had followed him through the crowd to invite him to sit with us then lost him and when she found him again his friends had just found him and they were all like " Jules, Jules!" So they kept sayin shit like how I love Jules' Jewels...oh man Janies been makin fun of me fer that all week! Even at werk today when she kept writin on me. But it kicked major ass....ha n Magz on Thursday was on her way to French, n was behind this boy with this cool bag from Australia and green shoes...n shes thinkin to herself, oh that's so cool. He's so cool...lol n just b4 she gets to the class door her teacher calls his name and starts talkin to him in French and so he turns around n nearly runs into her...lol guess who it was! yep that's right, it was HIM! If she listened to me more often about him instead of makin fun of me for it she would have known it was him cuz he has those every day! lol she nearly had a heart attack n then ran into her class...ha, karma. Neways, then on Friday I got in big trouble after werk n my mom embarrassed the hell out of me in front of Janie and was all like you're grounded, you're not going anywhere tonight! Homecoming football game night? I don't think so. The minute I got home I got changed and snuck out! ^_^ Duh, like I was really gonna miss the game? N it rocked sooooo much. Britni saved me a spot n dragged me off from Ash n Janie and Daniel n them so I was with her, and these boys behind me were so wasted I thought I'd die just from their stank breath...they even had vodka in a hawaiian punch bottle....man they reeked, lol and I made a point to say this loudly several times. Britni just laughed and they were apparently too wasted to notice. But anyways we were waitin for the game to start ( I LOVE FOOTBALL! even if I don't know a lot of the rules) and I saw Victoria and Will so I yelled to them and waved and nearly hit this boy cutting in front of me and I glanced back to him and nearly had heart failure...it was HIM. lol dammit. Then I finally talked Brit into movin cuz those boys smelled soooo bad, n we moved up top with Ash n them, n I swear man I was so pumped and hyper, I swear I was freakin born to be a damn cheerleader, I had more pep then all of em combined. So anyways, lol it was so bad everyone thought I was wasted and I was like I'm not drunk, I don't even drink and Kali looks at me and goes, "Wait, you're not drunk?" lol I'm like hell no...lol she so could not beleive it...lol. yeah, I'm that bad. So anyways HE moves over in front of me and I'm already dyin and I've got no sense of balance anymore and I'm all whoooo!!! n jumpin up and down and I fell off the damn bleachers, which I did all night, and screamed cuz it scared me so bad, and I claped my hand over my mouth, half hidin behind Meli cuz I'd instinctively reached for her and he turns around and just looks at me like I'm nuts...lol dammit. N Meli n them were all like I should push you off the bleachers into him...I was like ya'll are evil...n worst of all they really did try and shove me forward off the bleachers into him...which would have been bad cuz we would have tumbled a LONG way down...major pain and embarrassment right there! So he kept comin n goin all night and while I'm tryin to watch the game they keep remindin me he's there. N every damn time I did look at him he was lookin at me like wtf? Cuz I was jumpin and screamin and just way into it. Ha n I was like I swear to God if we lose another Homecomin game, cuz we hadn't won one since freshman years I was slashin tires and trippin football players in the hallway that comin monday...n Britni n Daniel just thought that was the funniest thing. They were like I can so see you doing it too...Brit was like they better get the hell out of the parkin lot fast if they do lose and Daniel was like I kinda hope they do lose just so I can see you do it. Lol...but we didn't lose! *happy dance* Oh n then Daniel was like Win for your tires! lol so I started screamin do it for your tires! Ha so we had fun...we were all antagonisitic our side of the stadium screamin freedom sux, and go home freedom, nah nah nah, hey hey, good bye, lol n stuff like that... Daniel n I were like we sound like freakin terrorists, n he started yelling Communisim rules...lmao. But it rocked even if HE was there and I was continiously reminded of it. I had sooooo much fun, we won, and I made friends with this really nice girl from Germany who is stayin with her cousins. I told her she was our good luck charm! ^_^ It was her first football game ever too, n I got her to cheer and scream with us! It was soooo much fun. Daniel n Janie danced like idiots a lot, n I got some pics...^_^ Ha Janie n Ash wen I told them HE was standin in front of us moved down to stand next to him lol n Janie introduced herself n he was like yah, shook her hand n introduced himself n then went on with his life...lol.Then afterwards we called Magz cuz she'd missed it and when she answered we all screamed really loud into the fone and were like yeah baby we won! Shut out game! Whooo! lol it was funny. Then the six of us, Meli, Ash, Janie, Me, Daniel, n Kali all drove up to Village Inn, as did a bunch of football players and other Plant Panthers. Oh man, n then on the way out of the parkin lot, radio blastin, windows rolled down, we drove past him n my friends noticed him n Janie was like HEY!!!! n wavin at him. lol he looked at her, his smile faded he kinda like half heartedly waved n quickly walked away...lol poor guy. Anyways lol, we ate and talked for a long while n then called it a night cuz I had to be at werk by 8 n we all had Homecoming the next night. So I got home around 12:30, 1ish and was all pumped n had a hard time gettin to sleep but I finally did. Ah....brb with the rest.

take me back to this moment
i'll try to look away

i could try your form of listening
but that wont solve anything now
i could scream but you're listening
to someone else
(you will hear me say "i can feel it")

sad songs always make the most sense
intense, pretense, sensual experience
search for the harmony you gave me
play it on my own skills

see me, open and flowing
will you cast a second glance my way?
see me, open and screaming
six eyes on you.
you're doing the distance.
will my gaze mark your skin?
or will it sink in?
will I give up faith in the aspect that guides me?
my patience wears thin.
see me, open and flowing
will you cast a second glance my way?
ask myself and i know
the big sun's all we have
we cant always build from...

i could try your form of listening
but that wont solve anything now
i could scream but you're listening
to something else
(you will hear me say "i can feel it")

eyes on a resolution
searching for a solution
it drew my tears
a mixed-up confusion
my eyes are disillusioned
somehow i know
i have the choice to deal with this
somehow i feel alright.

-Staring Back: "Six Eyes Too Far Away"-

Meh! lol...

2005-09-08T02:47:36Z

Hey all...been a long time since I updated. I still have no adapter because money is super, super tight what with medical bills and such. So yep, I'm stayin here at my aunt's while her and Glen are in Iowa. Yay, house to myself! ^_^ Lol although it wasn't such a great idea the other day. See, I werked double shifts all weekend. I werked Friday night, and then double shifts Saturday, Sunday, and Monday and then went out Saturday, Sunday and Monday night. lol so needless to say I was completely worn out and slept right through my alarm clock Tuesday and just decided to stay home, especially since I'd been sick for the past week or so. Ha, and then apparently I vomited, badly, in the bathroom but don't remember it...go figure. Cuz I was here alone and then my gma came over in the afternoon to do laundry and when she went back to the bathroom there was apparently vomit all in the toilet so bad she had to scrub it...lol gross, I know. So there are two options. 1 either someone snuck in just to vomit in the toilet and leave me alone, lol yeah, sure, or 2 I did it and just don't rememeber. How the hell do you not remember something like that? Eh, well I had to have. So yep. Ahhh so tired. *rubs eyes* After werk I had to run up to the bookstore for my new AP Eng. Book and wen I got home I crashed and just woke up not long ago...which is bad cuz I have tonnnns of hmwk. Damn teachers who think we have no lives. Argh...eh...lol yeah, intelligent huh? Agh...anyways, oooooh big news on the werk front. I came in today, early, and Janie was sitting up front with Pam killing time and waiting for me. So I walk in and I'm like hey guys! *smiles* Cuz I LOVE Pam and Janie, *sigh* I LOVE my job period! ^_^ So anyways...Pam was like "oh, Anna. I wanted to ask you something. I was going to talk to Julie (she owns the place hence the name Julie's Puppy Palace) about training you to werk upfront. Because I think you'd be great with the customers. It's not difficult and you've given tours before and I know you can do it. The customers always come back with a smile on their face, which is a good thing. So if it's ok with you?" Hell yes it's ok with me!!!! I love hanging out with Pam and I could seriously use the extra hours! So that's a huge promotion from werkin the kennel, and I've only been there 3 weeks! *dances* So that's awesomeness. Pam's always so nice to me though and telling Julie I'm such a good worker and whatnot, Ida's the same way. And then apparently, Ida was telling Janie and me that Carlos was saying that we were awesome grls that we were so great and all this. ^_^ Which rox! So yep, things are amazingly awesome at werk. I'd still get to werk kennel and suites and play with all the dogs but I'll also get to werk the front most of the time except on holidays wen we're closed so I'll be getting major hours and hopefully a pay raise. So yayness! ^_^ lol yeah, I'm just really excited cuz I love my job so much, I'm gonna be sad when I have to leave for college! *cries* Ooooh and lol Pam always flirts with Rubicon's dad, cuz he's such a cutie, and in the Navy, so damn cute in his uniform!!! And he's really funny and sweet, he's a great guy, lol so we all love him and Rubicon of course, lol so anyways Pam just loves him and she's always flirting with him ..lol so today I asked him to pose with Rubicon for a picture...lol and told her I was making her a copy. She's like "you just made my day" lol so yeah it was fun. ^_^ Oh, n fer those of ya that go to Plant, Pam is Pam Brown, from the office remember? Yep that's right, Mrs. Brown. She's the sweetest person, I just love her to death and she's so funny and so much fun to be around! We all goof around and hang out while we werk and such. ^_^ The only sad thing is that most of the dogs from the holiday, man we were packed we had 117 dogs to feed, clean and play with in limited time with limited ppl...but it rocked..so anyways most of em went home yesterday and I didn't werk yesterday :( that makes me so sad! Kelly, Maggie, Rufus, Sugar,Saratoga, Max, Maddy, Ringo, all my babies went home! :( I love all of the dogs to death, but those were my babies!!! lol sorry, pathetic I know. But at least Rubicon's back the big lug...sooooo beautiful though and huge, but today we got a new dog, who is actually bigger than Rubicon and he's beautiful too! His name's Soko and he's...I ferget what he is but he looks exactly like a husky only a thousand times bigger! Standing on his hind legs he'd prolly be bigger than even Gracie-Lou! umm lol for those of you who don't know Gracie-Lou that's huge...cuz she's like almost 6 ft or exactly 6 ft...something like that lol but anyways he's huge and sooo beautiful! *huggles them* I lovvve my job so much! *dies* lol ok I've rambled on enuff...I've got hmwk to do and my headache is comin back full force *slams head into wall* Ack...oooh n one more thing, two actually... Red Eye, Batman Begins, and Four Brothers, three of the GREATEST Movies ever!! *dies* I've see Red Eye twice cuz it was awesome and the main actor is so amazingly gorgeous! *drools* My god is he sexxi! YUMMY! lol so he was the reason I saw Batman Begins, and he was damn sexxi once more! lol so yea...Ummm lol k now I'm really goin. Laterz! Oh n I so need to talk to you Anita because according to some of my friend's I'm in love and that it was love at first sight with this guy at my school...ummm major problems with that!!! k welp love you Anita!!! *huggles* Laterz!

She says it’s cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She’s always worried about things like that
She says it’s all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when it’s raining
And she screams and her voice is straining
(chorus)
She says baby
It’s 3am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can’t help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain’s gonna wash away I believe it

She’s got a little bit of something, God it’s better than nothing
And in her color portrait world she believes that she’s got it all
She swears the moon don’t hang quite as high as it used to
And she only sleep when it’s raining
And she screams and her is straining
(chorus)
She believes that life is made up of all that you’re used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it’s stopped raining
(chorus)

-Matchbox Twenty: 3 AM-

Wah..

2005-08-20T23:11:51Z

Ahh...lol just got off a werk a lil while ago and about to shower so I can hang with Ash fer a lil while. My whole body aches so bad, and I love it! ^_^ I loooove my job sooo much. Its hard, physical labor nonstop and its awesome. *stretches* Definitely good fer my nerves. But sadly I don't go back until Wednesday, then I get to see Janie, Pam, and Ida again which is awesome ^_^. So yep...well last night went a little off...it sucked so bad at first too..my mom came and embarrassed the hell out of me in front of Ashley and I told her to just shut up and leave me alone and that I was leaving, I don't even fuckin live with her and she's always gotta be startin shit...then we thought she had left, I was at my g-ma's to change after werk, so I was takin the trash out for my gma and hell no she was still in the parking lot. I was pissed so I threw the bag into the dumpster hard and just got into Ash's car ignoring my mom. Then she finally yelled to Ashley to tell me to get out of the car, so Ash gets in and tells me but I'm so not getting out. So my mom pulls up behind us and fucking boxes us into the parking spot so I was really fuckin pissed off by now and I slammed the door open and jumped out of the car the whole time Ashley just saying be nice, be nice. Thing is with my mom that doesn't werk. So I walked up to the car and was like what do you want I'm late. So we had a short arguement there and shes like you will be punished somehow and under my breath I was like, and being born to you isn't punishment enuff, lol so I guess its a good thing she didn't hear me. Then she was like I'm gonna call your dad and tell him to ground you for a month...lol ok well I lost it right there and just started laughing at her. I was like he wont listen to you..lol which he wont, and I wont listen anyways. lol so yeah, I was in a shitty ass mood by then and embarrassed as hell that Ashley heard and saw all of it, tho it wasnt that bad by normal standards but anyways, then, Daniel bein a lil punk ditched out on me and Ash four hours b4 the game which turned out to be the pregame, not the actual first game of the season, n then tried to smooth things over by invitin us to go for sushi with his friends...which was why he was ditchin out the jackass. I really did NOT want to go because I don't know any of daniel's friends, mainly because they're mostly underclassman and wat not...lol plus Daniel's friends are pretty goody goody. But I went because Ash really wanted to spend time with him. It was interesting..lol I guess. I mean if I had really known them I could have participated more and had a lot more fun but they were all entertaining. And one of his really hot, funny friends actually stood up (we were in a japanese resteraunt in one of those lil box thingies, where you take off your shoes and sit on the floor) and took of his pants to prove a point! lmao...he was like I hope they don't mind. lol. So he took off his pants to show us how well defined his body was...lol his legs and watnot which he couldn't get to just by rollin them up. lol he also took off his shirt and started dancing, while sitting down, like a stripper (lol cuz Patrick had said at Ash's 18th bday party since Daniel wouldn't strip he would, so we were discussing the pay. lol and Kevin was like you're actually going to pay *him* to strip, we were like you said you don't strip you only dance, lol which was why he did that) lol and doing interesting things with his shirt...lol at which point Daniel covered Ash's eyes and pushed us out. lol but it was really funny. He even sang and did all sorts of things so that kid is really awesome, Patrick and Amy too. The others were nice and all but, ya kno? So then we headed up to Channelside and hung out fer a lil while. But Daniel's curfew is eleven and I was tired from werk and had to get up at 7 to go to my split shift, and Ash had to werk at 9, so we all were pussy and went home early :( which lol we're doing today too. But oh well. Tomorrow Ash and I are driving eight hours, lol just to pick up Charlie up in Valdosta, it's gonna be awesome. My dad had said I couldn't go...lol I'm just not telling him. He also told me I couldn't have a job...lmao...riiiiight. It's that whole Latin man wanting to be in charge bullshit I guess...lmao...right, like that's gonna werk with me. The Latina in me won't stand for it and besides that I refuse to let any guy control me. So of course I'm just gonna go and not tell him. Lol but watever, it's gonna be awesome....*sigh* K well I gotta shower, I smell really bad lol and I don't Ash wants to hang with me smelling like this. But I will be posting pics soon hopefully, lol especially ones with me in uniform, prolly with Janie. Lol because as Maddz put it I'm a "sexxi, hot nurse" LMFAO....I love her, but she's lost her damn mind. Lol tho Ash and Amber both werk making fun of me all like "You look so cute in your scrubs" lmao..."like a cute nurse." Lol...I actually went out last Friday in uniform too...ya...lol won't be doing that again. ^_^ So yep, I'm off...oooh maybe we'll stop in to see Sean at Top 5. I wanna see about getting sum Nathaniel's Endeavor shirts...they rock! ^_^ You should definitely check them out, I looooove their music. Ooooh and Driving East, Park, Over It, and So They Say...yep, tons new music I love besides them but that's all fer now! laterz! Oh n Anita you have to answer my question still! You said you were sorry about something, that you really did try, but what are you talking about?! I'm so praying you don't mean that you and Mike are over!!!! That's all I've been thinkin about fer like the past week, it's killing me!!! Please tell me that's not it! Or I'ma have to hop on a flight and come yell at you and cry and give you major hugs and cry some more...lol and then prolly scare the hell out of you in the process...LOVE YOU LOTS AND MISS YOU LOTS!!!! *big ass hugs and kisses* I'll note you or e-mail you soon!!!!! *huggles* LOVE YOU!

Whenever I try it feels like, the day is burning away
Peeling back my skin wanting to give in
Wanting to take this road straight back to nowhere again

Did you ever know I waited my whole life
Will you help my burn these street signs?
Waiting for a sunny Summer day

Did you ever know I held it all inside
It's pointless acting like you could understand
I'm doing the best I can to not give in

On this midwest island is a shipwreck
Where the walls have closed us in
Feeling like I can't wait to drive away from here

I feel like choking hands (of fear)
As they grab my neck (im scared)
But I'm not prepared to give up everything
You're taking my breath from me
You're asking too much from me

-So They Say: "Midwest Island"-

cries Anita!

2005-08-08T23:53:11Z

Agh! I miss you so much Anita!!!!! I am dying to get my adapter so I can talk to you again! I'm never gonna be able to concentrate in those god awful classes until I get to talk to you! I'm always thinkin, oh yeah I gotta tell Anita this and that...lol I'm such a loser, but I can't help it! I miss you! *huggles n cries* I have sooooo much to tell you and soooo much I wanna hear from you!!!! I need updates! *cries* E-Mail me or something and I'll hijack my sister's computer after school tomorrow! I love you! *huggles* Ahhh I so hope you haven't forgotten aboiut me! It's so weird not to talk to you everyday or every other day! I keep thinkin "Ah, she prolly forgot who I am by now!" and that just makes things worse! Agh...k...gotta go finish getting ready, I'm goin out with my Aunt Barbara tonite! ^_^ Gonna be so tired for school yet again but I so don't care! Jailbaits at school and so is this guy that I have got to tell you about! And Lee too! *dies* I soooo need my Anita talks/advice, I'm dyin here without you! love you!!!!! *huggz n kissez!* LOVE YOU!!!!

It's been three days
You come around here like you know me
Your stuff at my place
Next thing you know, you'll be using my toothpaste
Step up, sit down
Get ready, let me tell you who's the boss now
Stay here, get out
Everytime i turn around you're in my face

Don't care where you think you've been, and how you're getting over
If you think you've got me down
Just wait it gets much colder

Here I am,
As perfect as i'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see
Love me for me

Shut up, come back
No I didn't really mean to say that
I'm mixed up, so what
Yea you want me so you're messed up too
I love you, I hate you
If you only knew what i've been through

My head is spinnin'
But my heart is in the right place
Sometimes it has to have it's self a little earthquake

Here I am,
As perfect as i'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see
Love me for me

I've been waiting all my life
To finally find you
Just so i can push you away
And when youre crawlin over broken glass to get to me
That's when i'll let you stay

Oh, here I am
As perfect as i'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see
Love me for me
Love me for me

Whoa, here I am
As perfect as i'm ever gonna be
You'll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I'm not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You'll see
Love me for me
-Ashlee Simpson:Love Me For Me-

Disturbing...

2005-07-21T19:16:41Z

Hello all...me again, obviously. Welp Tuesday was a bust as was Wednesday...don't ask, but I decided to borrow my dad's computer and update after having a...very...disturbing...lol to say the least, conversation with Magz continuing from 11:42 P.M. to 2:04 A.M. lol the wonders of cell fones. So yep, anyways, lol here is our little texting convo...lol we're so going to hell...

(this is the beginning of the disturbing part, b4 11:42 we were relatively normal...go figure.)
Annie-Boo-Boo (*bows head* That's what her and Gracie-Lou call me) Cell: Lmfao omg I'm gonna die

Magz Cell: Y?

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: lol Kyo and Yuki...in da store...lookin 4 a swimsuit 4 tohru! -dies- lmfao this is sooooo funny...n SOOOO HOTT!!!

Magz Cell: Lol I know! Soo hotness!

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lmao it is! I love them so much its killing me trying to decide between them! I think I'm gonna cry

Magz Cell: If only polygamy were legal!

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lmao I know! ah I'm dying!

Magz Cell: Ha ha ha I luv them all! Wut to do?

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lol I swear to god theres something rong with me! Im droolin over sexxi poses of non existant ppl -dies-

Magz Cell: Guilty 2!

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lol damn man...da part where dem crazy grls r following dem round ya kno? n da guys just turn an look at em...-drools n dies-

Magz Cell: Lol I know! wut can i say? *dies*

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: God dammit i dont kno how to choose but i have to! she cant have em both! wat do i do?! -cries-

Magz Cell: *cries* I don't know! *sniffles*

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: I luv dem both so much! ima die tryin 2 choose! -cries- why cant we have real guys like dem?! i refuse 2 date any1 not like em!

Magz Cell: Lol ull die alone (Evil but true)

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lmao dont i know it! but i dont care! Yuki or Kyo or I die alone! -pouts-

Magz Cell: Lol I may be da same so well die 2gether

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lol hey at least we have high standards! hardcore Kyo/Yuki standards! ^-^

Magz Cell: Lol who cares i luv u kyo and yuki!

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lol hell yes! Kyo n Yuki always! -drools-

Magz Cell: *dies* Ima fan girl now!

Annie-Boo-Boo Cell: Lol oh god...the apocalypse is coming! How did i ind up here? oh how ive sunken so low 4 such gorgeous boys!

Magz Cell: Lol I need to go to sleep

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lol im never sleeping again! not while I have Yuki n Kyo to keep me up!

Magz Cell: Lol this could be a sickness

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lol theres no could be about it. Theyre going 2 be the death of me! -cries- i want so much 2 keep readin but then ill b done!

Magz Cell: Lol go 2 sleep

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lol i cant im horribly addicted an can think of nothing else! must have more fruits basket! I want bed sheets shirts books...ah!

Magz Cell: Ur sick with anime fever!

Annie-Boo-Boo: No with fruits basket fever! must have more! -runs in circles-

Magz Cell: Lol i am still obsessed after a year! U never get over it

Annie-Boo-Boo: Its gonna kill me! im in like major overload! i dunno wat to do!

Magz Cell: Die thats all u can do but then u wont find out who she picks

Annie-Boo-Boo: Ah nooo! must die yet still live? oh the inhumanity! i need my fruits basket!

Magz Cell: Lol i luve u annie-booboo! (i suffer and she laughs! *cries*)

Annie-Boo-Boo: Did i mention haru is yummy? lol i wan him 2 prove 2 me dats his natural color! -slaps hand 2 mouth- oh god i am goin 2 hell!

Annie-Boo-Boo: (in response that she luvs me) Lol that wont cure me tho!

Magz Cell: Lol me 2! And do it! oops -blushes-

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lmao ah a grl after my own heart...we r so goin 2 hell! but as long as i get dem fine sohmas i dont care! -dances n drools-

Magz Cell: *dies and goes 2 hell* no! I still haven't had a sohma! *cries*

Annie-Boo-Boo: oh my god...i just saw the SEXXIEST THING EVER!

Magz Cell: Wut?

Annie-Boo-Boo: Haru grabbed Torhu n Kyo punched da shit out of him n told him 2 leave her out of it! -dies- hes so sweet n sexxi n violent!

Magz Cell: Lol but I luv Haru!

Annie-Boo-Boo: I do too! I meant that he [Kyo] snapped like that over her was sexxi! god dammit i love him!

Magz Cell: Lol *dies*

Annie-Boo-Boo: Ahh so hott! theyre gonna fite over her! -drools-

Magz Cell: G'nite!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lol i hate you!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Ah Kyos so sexxi wen hes jealous! if i dont stop reading im going to have heart failure!

Magz Cell: Lol where's Yuki?!? I luve Yuki 2!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Me 2! but I dont know! ah my hearts torn btwn the two! I love them both so much! ah i think im havin heart failure!

Magz Cell: Wait til u get 2 10!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Ah n ys that?! ah i cant breathe anymore! these books, these sohmas are worse 4 me den pot n crack n every bit as addictive!

Magz Cell: Lol get 2 10 and find out i want a sohma baby! Is that wrong?

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lmao yes -bows head- but i want one 2!

Magz Cell: Lol it cant be helped we r sick

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lmao yes we r so beyond help! ah i cant breathe im so...lol i dont even have the word!

Magz Cell: Lol I really should sleep now!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Lmao me 2 but i cant!

Annie-Boo-Boo: ah...pic..of Kyo...all...WET...I CANT BREATHE!

Annie-Boo-Boo: Ah harus all wet 2!!! -dies-

Annie-Boo-Boo: OMG! and they [Kyo n Yuki] both told her to hold their hand! *dances, drools, and dies!*

lol yeah...issues, i know. at this point she went to sleep and i continued to suffer into the early morning hours..*sniffles* and its all her damn fault anyways for giving me Fruits Basket!! EVIL MAGGIE EVIL!!! lol laterz. much love! *mwah*

Oh...and btw...lol wen I said Kyo or Yuki or I die alone...lmao...that didnt include Mike, Eric, and Greg...lmao...sry, Anita had to say it! But you know Greg's my hero and I love the three of them!!! But of course I love you mostest!!! *huggles* Love you! *MWAH!*

You Are Coffee Ice Cream

Energetic and lively, you are always on the go.
You're doing a million things at once and doing them well.
You tend to motivate others and raise spirits.
You are most compatible with chocolate ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

I take it all to heart
Don't point the finger
Choose the winner
Hold your own
It's never been arranged
Who's the liar
I'm the coward
The letter read like this...
Of all the sinners I've walked before

I can't deny
Somehow you're seeing it
So you're the one who took the fall
and it's bringing us together
Don't ask me why
Somehow I'm seeing it
and I'm breaking after all
This could last forever

The choice has always been
To take advantage
Ride it to the top
Still I'm caught again
I see this coming
See this coming true
Of all the sinners I walk before

I can't deny
Somehow you're seeing it
So you're the one who took the fall
and it's bringing us together
Don't ask me why
Somehow I'm seeing it
and I'm breaking after all
This could last forever

We'll see if I start coming clean
You'll see that I'm still missing

I can't deny
Somehow you're seeing it
So you're the one who took the fall
and it's bringing us together
Don't ask me why
Somehow I'm seeing it
I'm breaking after all
This could last forever

-Acceptance:"The Letter"-

Blehnezz...

2005-07-18T15:16:33Z

Welp, my damn laptop adapter broke...figures. Sooooo I have no computer for a while, until I can order...lol time to take daddy's credit card and rush the damn order! So yeah, I'm using the computer I gave him because I am once again unfortunately home...bleh...welp, only 6 more months and I can get the hell out LEGALLY therefore not having to worry about his bullshit threats or my mothers...hmmm so yep, no comp for a few more days...bleh. Ummmm tomorrow Tori and I are suppose to go out, which we are still on right babe? We better be, lol it's gonna cost me my soul to get the damn car and prolly thirty bux I ain't got, so I will be kidnapping you bright and early! ^_^ Magz will prolly have to spend the night cuz Wednesday we're drivin up to Miami to go see Miami U and then hopefully some kickass Anime shop she told me about...lol damn Magz got me addicted to this new manga called Fruits Basket and Alyssa has 6,7, &8 and mah damn husband/wife is away in Conneticut! So not only do I miss her but she has three installments of my addiction!!! I LOVE THE SOHMAS!!! ^_^ ha lol yes, issues, I know. So yep, I'll be back Thursday afternoon but I will be going out of town again prolly next week to visit some more colleges FSU (GO SEMINOLES!!!! ^_^), UNC @ Chapel Hill-where I've basically decided to go because I'm almost positive I can get in and it's a hell of a lot cheaper than Columbia, unless of course my final stop, Oberlin, can win me over...lol it's basically a toss up because...Oberlin has the most awesome library EVER! It's amazing...lmao....it's the real reason I'm going to look, that and their concert halls, because all 5 are amazing too, absolutely gorgeous and I love my music, even if I am a scaredy cat..lol. so yep, and last but not least, most importantly....my Anita!!!! *huggles her* I hope she's doing ok! Or as well as can be! I haven't heard from her in a while and have not really been online and I'm worried about her and miss her! :( I know if she were here though she would of course tell me not to worry, because that's what she always tells me when I worry over her being sick of whatnot...and my response shall be generally the same...ARE YOU CRAZY? OF COURSE I WORRY ABOUT YOU! I LOVE YOU! *ahem* lol ok, that was a little loud...but it's the truth! How can I not worry about you?! It's just not possible! You're Anita! I love you! Therefore I worry...lol not gonna stop either! I hope everything's ok, or as well as can be and you're feelin ok...I LOVE YOU! So remember if you need anything or just want to talk...or make fun of Tinx...lol then I'm here for you of course because you're my Anita! *huggles* You better comment or something, let me know you are alive at least, don't make me worry too much! Love you! *hugs and kisses* I'll be thinkin bout ya and sendin ya good vibes! ^_^ laterz! much love! *Mwah*

Am i the one that's going crazy
I'm so tired of masquerading
I pretend to be so well adjusted
Maybe it's just me and i'm disgusted

I need a room at a mental penitentiary
So lock me up with maximum security
The doctors say that they don't know whats wrong with me
So strap me down it's time for my lobotomy

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

The doctors say that I'll be getting out real soon
The doctors say that I've been making big breakthroughs

One little minute seems to last a lifetime
Like staring at the ceiling even though you're blind
We all pretend to be so complicated
You and me just maybe dislocated (dislocated)

I need a room at a mental penitentiary
So lock me up with maximum security
The doctors say that they dont know whats wrong with me
So strap me down its time for my lobotomy

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

The doctors say that I'll be getting on real soon
The doctors say that I've been making big breakthroughs

The doctors say
The doctors say that i'm okay
The doctors changed their minds
And now i'm here to stay

Sorry babe
I'm not crazy
Pardon a me baby
Yo no soy loco

The doctors say that I'll be getting out real soon
The doctors say that I've been making big breakthroughs

the doctors say that im not crazy afterall
the doctors say take two of these and give me a call

get up!

-MxPx:"Well Adjusted"-

Life is good!

2005-07-13T06:28:14Z

Ahhh life is good! lmao...yeah random, I know. But Tori is off of werk next Tuesday and me and her are spending the ENTIRE day together! *dances* lol I've really missed my Lollipop-Kolysifup-Breather! Soooo now all I gotta do is bribe my mother into letting me borrow her car...be warned, this may cost me a limb or two, or three...lol hell it might cost me my soul, she is after all Satan...lol but it'll be sooo worth it cuz I'll be spendin da day with Tori!!! I love and miss my Toriz very, very much! *huggles* Yay..lol welp, off to write...much love! *MWAH*

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

-Kelly Clarkson:"Addicted"-

My Illiterate friend..oh how I love you..lmao

2005-07-13T05:47:05Z

Loves my illiterate Lollipop-Kolysifup-Breather!!! lmao...sry babe, had to do it! ^_^

The worst time, to hit you with my first line, no
Everything seemed fine, when I hold you like you’re one-of-a-kind
You said you were a sure sign, it’s feeling like the last time
Play it back, it’s going over and over
Give it up and pull me through, all of this to tell you...

I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far
Can’t stop feeling, doesn’t matter who you are
This could be my last goodbye
You could stay, I’ll be alright
I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far

If I might say, all of this seems to float away from...
Your lips when they’re kissing me, and your hips when leaving me for
The last time, I’m thinking of the first time, ohh
The first time, I’m thinking of the last time
Play it back, it’s going over and over

You’re trying me so I’m moving on, all of this to tell you...

I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far
Can’t stop feeling, doesn’t matter who you are
This could be my last goodbye
You could stay, I’ll be alright
I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far

This is where we left off and I’m trying hard to let go
This is where we left off and I’m still waiting to see if you’ll show

The first time, I’m thinking of the last time
The last time, I’m thinking of the first time

I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far
Can’t stop feeling, doesn’t matter who you are
This could be my last goodbye,
You could stay, I’ll be alright
I’ve been thinking, take me now, I’m in too far

-Acceptance:"In Too Far"-

Bullshit...

2005-07-13T04:57:01Z

I'm so over this shit, it's not even funny anymore. The whole boyfriends and friends thing is absolute shit. Look, I understand that you have some desperate need to find a guy to show you that you are worth something and that what I think or say, along with any other friend means nothing in comparison to the male species, as much as I hate that or don't understand that, I realize it all the same. So nothing I do will change that, got it, understand it, still hate it. But whatever. Do what you have to do. That shit's ruined a friendship I thought was...I don't even know what I thought anymore, but whatever. My point is I'm sick of the whole thing...especially the playing favorites. I'm so sick of people pissed off at me because they think I favor another friend over them when it's fucking bullshit. They know damn well it ain't the truth. I know how that feels, I've felt that way before and if you feel that way, talk to me, fine, but don't start bullshit with other ppl concerning our relationship. I don't play favorites, in case you failed to notice, I'm there for friends equally and love them equally. Favorites only gets you hurt more, and as much as it hurts me to care about any of you, I do. But favorites is even more pain than I can handle. I don't need to be your favorite and I don't want you to be mine. This whole favorites thing will not work as leverage on me anymore. And you better just stop using it as a way to hurt other people I care about or even in some indirect way to hurt me. I hurt enough just caring about you when you throw your lives away and don't listen to a damn thing I say when I have your best interests in mind, so you needn't bother to hurt me. Got it? I hope so, because I know you're not stupid. So just chill with the favorites, I know who matters most to me and if you wonder about it ask me, stop starting fights with other ppl or me about it, ok? No more guilt from me. Hypocritical as this may seem to some, I'm being honest and if you can't handle it, forget about it. No one said you had to read this. Later. much love. *mwah*

She's a liar
It comes to this
All we had 'til now is gone
And I'm the other
Piece to this
Every time I feel this inside
I don't wanna be the one who...

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lies are getting old

She starts feeling on her own
She makes the city seem like home
All you had for me is gone
I give and I give
But you hope in return
Never thought I'd be the one to burn

Every time I feel this inside
I don't wanna be the one to
I don't wanna be the one who...

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lies are getting old

-Acceptance:"Take Cover"-

I Won't Be Your Star Forever

'07 Baby!!!

FHSAA State Finals...Fuck yeah...I am so in love with Robert Marve!!!

Wow...

*cries* Anita!

Fiction is the only way you're dealing, you turn your pretty head if it gets real....

A failure at everything... 18 going on extinct.....

So a day when u've lost urself completely could b a night when ur life endz...

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-11-15T15:28:00

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-11-08T15:02:00

Owwwie

Bleh....

Randomnezz....

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-09-27T16:51:00

bubblegumdamali @ 2005-09-22T16:30:00

Pictures!

Back...

HOMECOMING!!!!!

Meh! lol...

Wah..

*cries* Anita!

Disturbing...

Blehnezz...

Life is good!

My Illiterate friend..oh how I love you..lmao

Bullshit...

cries Anita!

cries Anita!